Here we are, and here’s to better beginnings.
I did my usual half-decade-ly watch of End of Evangelion and I know two things for sure:
1) that was not a good thing to partake in while brain is in a bad place,
2) I still have so many thoughts about, feelings regarding, and far too much empathy for Ikari Shinji. I still see far too much of myself in him — or myself at this particular moment in my life, at least. I always thought that, as an adult, I became quite Misato-esque, and…I mean, look at my neuroses, I did, but me at 14 was just a female version of Shinji. So very, very much. To the point where I would get to the end of some episodes and think “how can someone get inside my mind like that?” (and because of schizophrenic thought patterns, may have actually written a diary entry consisting of mildly mad rambling questioning how someone could “do that to me”…I literally felt like someone was looking right into my soul and then throwing it onto my TV screen and the whole world could see it.)
Another thing I know is that my kneejerk reaction to people complaining that Shinji is “whiny” or “weak” or the usual is to disregard pretty much everything they have to say about anything 😀
Another gripe I have, Evangelion-wise: people who describe Misato as “a genuinely horrible person”. Did…did we watch the same show? She is a genuinely and deeply flawed person, oh hell yes, but her intentions are good, and her protective feelings and motherly love towards Shinji is absolutely, 100% genuine. You don’t let yourself get blown up for someone you’re just using as an emotional security blanket.
She’s not a perfect person by any stretch of the imagination, but trust me, Misato is one of the good ones. And good people can do shitty and stupid things. What is WITH this fandom and black and white thinking?