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Month: July 2020

the words she sings, the tunes she knew

Following on from this…Katsuragi Misato has an embarrasingly large collection of city pop, half of which she was too young to really remember hearing on the radio, but she still loves the lot of it, because it reminds her both that she’s here, now, and she likes to associate it with her less painful childhood memories, even if some tracks were released way before they occurred.

She’s a very complex lady, after all.

She also slowly gets Shinji into it. Nobody can tell me those two didn’t bond over music at some point. Misato zeroed in on the fact that a way to connect with Shin-chan for sure is music like a lion taking down a limping gazelle.

all the ghosts in this heart

So the [purple]-haired girl looks for escapism
To fill the empty spaces she’s feeling
She depends on her music like a husband
And she knows it’s no good to fall in love again…

It’s just the ghost of what you really want
And it’s the ghost of the past that you live in
And it’s the ghost of the future you are frightened of
So you look to your guardian angel…

when I met you, I said my name was Rin

…you looked like someone who would get everythin’

So my stalker touched down on Love Reflection and just…I am so, so tired of this. Our worlds are beyond separate, I have literally NOTHING to do with them past laughing at other people laughing at the overdramatics of a couple of their friends back in March, and I am just…I am f’ing tired. I have enough shite to deal with at the moment without having to put up with some slimy creepy who is flat-out lying about me being in a cult (aaaaaand previously flat-out lied about me being a sexual predator. I f’ing kid you NOT). Just, leave me alone? You go do your unhinged thing wherever you are and I’ll continue to have absolutely nothing to do with your abusive self. I am so sick of going into an automatic panic spiral when I see their bloody IP pop up on my tracker.

Banned them, so I’ll be surprised if they appear again, but that’s not the point.

Urgh, whatever.

Still in pain, nerve pain, no less. Fun stuff, that. BUT. I’ve been migraine-free since last Tuesday, so…good with the bad. Or is it bad with the good? I can’t remember. Neither, both. More stabbity time tomorrow morning. Hopefully my acupuncturist can fix this.

Apropos of close to nothing, the exchange rate is bumming me out horribly, aaaaand I think I’m going to switch back to (bleh) WordPress. HTMLy is nice, but not terribly customisable, layout-wise.

shine on in the technosparkle

I’m not dead, contrary to what some people certainly do wish, I am sure. Just dealing with chronic pain, and with that comes a lack of mental health, and…blah blah blah, second verse, same as the first.

I’m…getting used to it? Knowing when some stuff is too much and when pain is made worse by stress and so on. It still sucks, but it’s made a tiny bit better with a couple of lifehacks and all.

Got some acupuncture (virtually wholly painless; pricking my finger while embroidering is literally more painful) and realignment down yesterday. I’m a little sore today, but…no body aches, so far. Not going to jump the gun and say everything’s fine now, but hey, I’ll take it! I…still have a migraine, though, but I think that’s due to the ever-present sinus infection, and I didn’t get any stabbity death needles for that, so.

In other news…not much. Been coding away; got a couple of projects beneath my belt. Started listening to the audiobook of Brandon Sanderson’s Elantris, quite enjoying that. (Am also listening to the audiobook of The Iron Tower: The Dark Tide by Dennis L. McKiernan, which is…derivative crap, I’ll be honest. But I’m enjoying it, and I’m fond of the main character. …seeing as he’s a Frodo expy, that’s probably not surprising, though.)

Also started playing PokéFarm Q again! I’m here, if you play too ^^ Soothing my anxiety by organising pixellated monsters into groups. Hey, I ain’t lookin’ a gift Ponyta in the mouth…